Updated: Feb 12, 2020
Yesterday morning I woke up full of emotions. It was the resurfacing of something I had been working with God to tackle in 2019. As I read over a friend's blog, she posed the question "What did God say to you in your conversation with Him this morning?" In that instant I really thought about what God was saying to me in this emotional state I was currently in, on just the SECOND day of the NEW YEAR!!
Internal thoughts: It's only day two, how can I feel tired/defeated already? Of course, that in itself caused an "even more draining feeling" because I felt like I should not even be in this space just days into the "new year"! In true trendy fashion, I was equating a new year with a clean slate, which was a reason to be refreshed and happy! However, that wasn't the case for me! Today, I wasn't feeling so new year-ish!
What God said: God reminded me that January 1, 2020 was another day and it did not STOP the work He had already started in me. Therefore, I am still a work in progress and He is still working on the progression of me. A "'new year" is not a magical wand so it doesn't stop, hinder, or speed up God's work. The same work He was doing in me and my life situations on December 31, 2019 is the same work he is doing on today— January 3, 2020. In a nutshell, I have not fallen short in this "new year" but I am still rising to the TOP to be positioned for everything He has lined up for me THIS YEAR!
So if you have already had a "moment" in 2020, don't use that moment to gauge how the rest of your "new year" will be. Moreover, don't beat yourself up for having a moment! Instead remind yourself that God promised that He will finish the work He started in you. The day on the calendar doesn’t stop it or declare the work finished.
And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.
What does that mean? You or your life didn't become perfect on January 1, 2020! So, God is still perfecting you and while being perfected you will have moments! Therefore, if you happen to find yourself going through the motions, don’t think it’s “wrong”. The only wrong thing would be staying in that moment and waddling in it! Take the moment to acknowledge your feelings then soon after think about how you may want to handle things differently than you probably did the previous year! I am big advocate for writing things out. So, write out your feelings (journal) then write out the plan to change it and pray over it. Use this moment to fuel your motivation to write out a list of goals so you can begin EXECUTING them!
ex·e·cu·tion /ˌeksəˈkyo͞oSH(ə)n/ noun
the carrying out or putting into effect of a plan, order, or course of action.
It's my year of EXECUTION!!! Last year, 2019, was a year of God revealing and showing me who I am and what He has for me. He helped me dig up a promise that I completely buried and gave me the courage to write a book about it. With that, God started lining up so many things and giving me visions for this project. I spent the latter part of 2019 seeking God and PLANNING. Now it is time to EXECUTE-- me to execute the plan and God to execute His promise!
Ps, be sure your goals and resolutions are not just to fulfill worldly desires but to fulfill that which God has called you to do!